This Blog is DEAD~!!!!
Luckily
I am that LifeGuard
Who Finally comes (after half a year)
To rescue and resuscitate it
Yeah...(Sexy Macho Voice)
Yup I know Its The 20th november and..
11 november was like, 2 Centuries ago..
But nevertheless (Mind me for being very WOLS)..
'O' level ended, and so has my life..
Of course to all those blur sotongs out there..
Im not literally D.E.A.D..
Im just dead..
Lost would be the perfect word to begin with..
And Again, I'm not literally lost, Duh!..
Its just that I longed for Smth Different And "Spicy" to happen..
I thought This period of time would be The Best..
Well everything turns out to be Topsy-Turvy, I feel Empty(ehemz)..
I had Plans..
-Plan to go gym thrice Every Week
-Go Overseas which means Sentosa
-Learn Guitar-ing
-Learn Keyboard-ing
- Go to outings
- Maybe but mostly not probably-> Work
For the Work issue..
Father say go work as Hot Waiter/Butler..
Mom Say Don't Coz obviously she needs ppl at home to do chores..
And..to babySit Ririn..
SERIOUSLY, My mom and I can like open a ChildCare Centre-Home Edition..
So work Was out of the question..
The Gym thing is being compromised. At least until December..
Dream to go overseas, yet To Plan anything..
The Keyboard and Guitar. Dont mention It.
Ya, Sure there is other things that i've thought to do.
But its too personal..
So Ya plans are all very haywired..
Like many of the Beroks have said
F.O.L
So recently I would be saying "No Mood" to anything..
Plain Lethargic.
Haha but no im not one lazy babboon
I just need time. Time to find myself..
Im Lost not coz of my short term plans..
Im Just not sure of my life path..
Where I wanna go, What choices should i make..
You know, all those cliche stuffs..
The problem is I just Can't decide
WHY
Is any choice Better for me..
My heart says go with what I love and Care for..
My Conscience? Says WAKE UP! Welcome to Reality..
Im constantly angry at myself
Bcoz I dont have the Guts to fight for what I want, need and love..
Im not that kind of person..
I really am not..
This 9 days since 11 november made me realized i need a change..
a major one..
Haha, Of course my Good lookingness won't Change, It's perfect the way it is..
I Just need To Change my Mindset..
Dont know how...But I'll figure it out..
Btw wanna give a ShoutOut To Nabila Who should be Overseas now.
MISS YA!!!
HEHEHEHE
I gotta confession
You know the guy named 'TOP'
is actually me.
SO PLS DO COME BACK TO SG!!!! AND DO STAY!!!
Kay People, Take care of yourselves
Those students turned workers, enjoy working
and Ya enjoy yourselves to the max but plz hor, Rmb to control yourself
Im gonna hit the nightclubs now so
~PEACE!!~
Nitez Nitez!
